Lately I’ve been feeling like the odd one out
Should I try to fit in with them all and rob myself
Of my identity? And be someone that’s not myself?
How could I sell myself out? Man, all I got is myself
I got friends, but they got their own drama to deal with
It ain’t like high school no more, this drama is real kid
I feel like all I do is eat, sleep and work
And by the time I get off, I’m so beat it hurts
I could use some time away, work’s been taking it’s toll
My back’s aching, back breaking work’s been breaking my soul
Or spirits, whichever you prefer to refer to
Reminds me of my hustle on the curb out on Gertrude
My days off, don’t even feel like days off
And my account balance,
Makes me wonder if hard work ever pays off
It’s chaos, sometimes I wish these jerks would lay off
Instead it’s, “yes sir, whatever you say boss!”
But how the hell am I supposed to function?
Feeling like nothing but life and death’s conjunction?
When everything I know is based on assumption
The assumption that the people who taught me knew something
Am I weird? I don’t know, I feel weird
If no one understands me, then why am I still here?
And why do I insist on doing this to myself?
I need to stop asking for help from everyone else
And HELP MYSELF….

These days assimilate, all colors fade to grey
These days assimilate, I’m caught in Nesters’ rat race
These days assimilate, all colors fade to grey
These days assimilate, I’m in Nesters’ rat race

Lately I’ve been feeling like it’s all the same
With every movement that I’m making, taking part in a game
But there’s no heart in the aim, that flies true but tame
So every effort that I start, just falls apart in the rain
Under a mark like cain, my prophecy, self appointed
So I remain the King of refrain, self anointed; the disjointed
I know my foe by many names and dubious claims
Of my infinite soul in flames
We both one in the same, I’m just the half of the whole
Who stays awake at night, afraid the other’s after my soul
And I can hear it, louder than the pump in my chest
Footfalls like the rhythms hidden under my breath
And I can feel the echoes of my thoughts that rob me of rest
But if I let go then I know I’ll just get caught in these nets
I’m trying to pause and reflect, but living cause and effect
Has left me blinded to the jackal with his jaws at my neck
So how am I supposed to deal with the weight
Of every second, falling on these shoulders, holding my fate?
I count stars that I know I’ll never hold in my hands
And try to understand my need to know the reasons of man
I worked hard looking for a path I feel is my own
And had to leave behind my only definition of home
A single tone, clear - like the ring of a bell
Maybe the answer that I need to escape this hell
And HELP MYSELF….

Now, you’d be mistaken if you think us three fools
Can change the rules through the duel of the song
Wrong, cause we recruit you
We the fuel, you the fire, we the means, you the desire
We’re the half, you’re the whole, the clock strikes 12 lo behold
Watch our stand rise like a fire piercing darkness
It’s desire to consume the unfit
those who be fighting to survive
Lives are at stake, complacencies hate
Our minds awake, waging war, for the poor
Blast the door
WAR!